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2002-04-17 | 5:20 p.m. corduroy licorice didn't want to paper over his problems, but, try as he might, he couldn't get that darned linda evans poster off of his bedroom wall. *** shhh... did you hear that? that being me? i didn't think so. why? i'm shy. and quiet. i'm as quiet as a mouse. i'm the quiet before the storm. i've always been quiet. i prefer input to output. thinking to talking. listening to broadcasting. in school, i'd almost always wait to be called on. i hated public speaking like i hated having to eat squash. "you're so shy!" people would say. "that's enough out of you!" they'd tease, tongues in cheeks. "hold up a mirror and see if she's still breathing." (no really, one guy did!) peeps? i hardly let one out...unless i was with my other quiet peeps. a little too often my friends have to say "what?" off and on during our conversations. i just don't seem to know how to turn it up to eleven. last weekend in my new improv class, the very first day, my teacher prompted me firmly, but nicely: "i need more volume from you, nictate! how can i get more volume from you?!" my old improv teacher says to practice yelling in my car while driving down the freeway. good idea, there. and i can count on the other drivers to give me plenty of motivation. i don't know why i hit the mute button so often. i guess i like to keep a low profile. be all tranquil and chilly chill. avoid invective, be reflective. but i know i need to speak up. pipe up. pump it up. because, you know, it's always the quiet ones. |
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