2001-02-11 | 03:57:11

my heart is still in the healing process. kinda like recovering from a muscle strain. you think you're doing as well as can be expected, then you twist at an odd angle and the pain shoots again.

i hate to complain. i'm lucky in that the one i'm blue over is one of the kindest souls to walk the earth and we are staying close, close friends. but it still hurts when wishes don't come true, you know? and there's the missing and the mourning, despite all the good stuff that remains.

this morning, even though i had a comforting phone call with that certain someone, i felt a bit blue. the weather was grey and chilly to fit my mood, so i put on chris issak's forever blue album and wallowed in my heartsickness. sad music seems to intensify sadness, while alleviating it a bit at the same time. strange phenomeon.

a run and a melrose shopping afternoon with ascension helped perk me up. i didn't even have to watch her nose piercing being done. whew!

now i'm home, it's late, i've got candles burning and the moody leaving las vegas soundtrack playing. the healing continues...

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